Shoooweeeeee!!

You know so many times in church we hear about people who have made so many silly decisions only to find themselves in situations where they are in trouble or in situations where their hearts are totally broken. Yes so many people find themselves in terrible emotional states because of their bad decisions.

But what about those who have followed all the rules and for those who actually have a genuine relationship with Jesus Christ? We read our Bible, we meditate on the word, we pray to God, we sing all the Hillsong songs, we paste positive, faith stirring status updates on our Facebook and twitter accounts. We serve; we attend all the Christian activities. We have loving families, financially we not bad, and we even have a few Christian friends. And we really really really love God deeply.

What happens if after all of that you still wake up one morning and realise your heart is broken and you just don’t know what you are going to do to get by today?

This is RAW and REAL, as I am that person who woke up one morning and realised that my heart is broken for no apparent reason. I didn’t loose a loved one or wasn’t terminally ill. I just was SAD and battling to see the light at the end of the tunnel never mind the silver lining.

I am not there yet, but I am definitely on my way there. I can’t tell you how not to get there all I can share with you is my experiences and my journey. You see to be heart broken or SAD totally goes against our Christian thinking, so how do you tell people that you are not actually cracking it? We know the answers we will get. The remedy for a broken heart you know is pray more faith prayers to Jesus; surrender all areas of your life to him, read more scripture.

What happens if you do all of that and your heart is still broken?

You see I think we sell a false Gospel. Give your heart to JESUS and ALL will be solved. THAT IS, well how can I put it……………. JUNK!!!! Pretty much most of this year I have been feeling like such a failure, I have been trying so so hard to get it together emotionally and spiritually.

And then I realised that maybe just maybe God does take you through the valleys on purpose and that it is also part of His plan to break your heart for no other reason, than because He loves you. I just think the danger in Christianity is that so often we feel so bad for going through rough times and actually not being the PERFECT Christian, that we put on this brave face and just grin and bare all the emotions and thoughts that are raging in our head. Well at least that is true of me, but I believe it is true of many of us.Because in the unspoken rules of Christianity you know you should not be feeling this way, you end up feeling like a failed Christian. You feel that you have disappointed God, yourself and your loved ones. You feel so bad that you almost give up on God.

My emotional turmoil has at times been so bad that I didn’t even realise that it is stealing my confidence in God. I don’t have the answers or the solutions all I know that I am clinging to God and to the truth even though it doesn’t make sense at times.

All I believed in couldn't adequately account for the broken place I found myself in. It was a new beginning in a way

In Mere Christianity by CS Lewis, He calls God "The Great Iconoclast." An iconoclast is one who shatters images, icons.

For God, Lewis says, this means that he is always breaking down our images and understandings of Him so that a clearer image can replace it, a better understanding can prevail, a finer picture emerge. Is this what God has done when "everything has failed"?

We must consider the possibility. And, before we abandon God, we must entertain the possibility that God would let us down in such profound, heartbreaking ways because he relentlessly expects to be known as he is, not as we would want him to be ("the God of the intact heart").

* We must be willing to know God as he is, not according to what we prefer. This pursuit will always keep us humble.


* God will break your heart. Probably more than once. And it will appear as though God has failed you--that he can't be trusted.

* Sometimes it's part of shattering the image you have made of him that is not him.


* Your intact heart is less important than God being the object of your love and trust.

* We are told that the greatest commandment is to Love God and Love People. Neither love can exist alone; they must happen together.

* Loving God enables us to love people. Loving people is an expression of our love for God. When we stop loving people because they break our hearts, we no longer can say that we love God.

* And if we stop loving God because he has broken our hearts, we can no longer honestly tell another person, "I love you"--for it will be a lie. It will only be a mock-up of love, not the real thing.


* I'm reminded of a song I heard Chris Tomlin singing with David Crowder: Here are the powerful lines: A lover for the lonely...he brings peace in our madness, comfort in our sadness...he will wipe away the tears, and redeem your wasted years, This is our God.

I say with Isaiah : "I will wait for the Lord, who has turned away...I will put my hope in him."

Philippians 4:6. Be anxious about nothing, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ.

Hebrews 12:6-11
“because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son." Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? If you are not disciplined (and everyone undergoes discipline), then you are illegitimate children and not true sons. Moreover, we have all had human fathers who disciplined us and we respected them for it. How much more should we submit to the Father of our spirits and live! Our fathers disciplined us for a little while as they thought best; but God disciplines us for our good, that we may share in his holiness. No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it. Therefore, strengthen your feeble arms and weak knees.”